Ok, it's my very first blog entry now that I'm a “peapod” expecting a bundle of JOY… 6 months and counting down to September!
Looking back over the past few months, I just want to thank our heavenly Father for His goodness in our lives and the renewed hope that He had given us through this miracle of life. My heart is filled with gratitude towards a loving God whose Hand has been evident throughout my life and especially throughout this pregnancy, and I felt this song is apt in describing what my heart is feeling now…
Because of who You are, I give You glory
Because of who You are, I give You praise
Because of who You are, I will lift my voice and say
Lord I worship You, because of who You are.
Jehovah Jireh, my Provider
Jehovah Nissi, Lord You reign in victory
Jehovah Shalom, my Prince of Peace
And I worship You, because of who You are.
(Martha Munizzi’s Because of Who You Are)
Fraught with previous negative medical reports (of endometriosis and polycystic ovarian syndrome), the idea of conceiving seemed rather far-fetched to both Roy and I. We had even discussed the possibility of adopting a child if I still cannot conceive after a few years of trying. However, on 30 Dec 2006 (slightly a year after our wedding), we received a surprising yet thrilling “anniversary gift” from God after a routine check at the GP; the doctor suggested a pregnancy test, just to test it out and it came out positive! We almost lost our precious “gift” on 1st Jan 2007 after I experienced a gush of blood while walking around before dinner. If I had not taken the pregnancy test 2 days before, I would have thought my period had come.
“Threatened miscarriage” – how scary this sounds when we rushed to the hospital and was told that this unexplained bleeding was a threatened miscarriage. Doc told me to bedrest completely because there was a 50% possibility of a real miscarriage. Fear struck us big time and the only thing we could do was to pray and just leave everything to God. We realized right there and then that life really is fragile but it is really God who is in total control. The next few weeks of intermittent spotting and the twice weekly hormone injections plus daily hormone pills popping was an anxious episode for me, but thank God for the godly support I received from my pastors and friends around me (and also my very supportive parents), peace filled my heart throughout the unstable 1st trimester of my pregnancy.
Now that I’m almost at the end of my 2nd trimester and entering into my 3rd, I’m really looking forward to the birth of baby Emma Joy… “Emma” is the first 4 letters of Emmanuel, because God has indeed been with us, as evidenced throughout this pregnancy (Matthew 1:23 "God with us"… God is with her), and “Joy” because the JOY of the Lord is [her] strength (Nehemiah 8:10).
P/S: I'll post pictures of the ultrasound scans once I fhigure out how to attach pictures... (and also pictures of our shopping purchases for our little "pea"... heheh)
P/P/S: Just a side-note... if you visit my photo-website, you'll see some pictures we took on our trip to Beijing & Hong Kong (if the pictures are still there). Yes, you've guessed it right, Emma's "made in Beijing/HK" while we were celebrating our wedding anniversary! hahahah
